Teaching is one of the greatest joys of my life. There’s nothing like seeing a child’s face light up with understanding. Hearing their curious questions challenges me to think in new ways. But as an autistic teacher, there’s a duality I face every day that isn’t always easy to manage.

I am incredibly sound-sensitive. Certain noises—especially loud, sudden, or unexpected ones—can overwhelm me to the point of a panic attack. It feels like my whole world narrows, and my body shifts into survival mode. At the same time, I naturally have a loud voice. It’s how I project myself in the classroom, share my passion for teaching, and keep my students engaged.

This combination—being both sound-sensitive and naturally loud—creates its own unique challenge. On one hand, I need to protect myself from sensory overload. On the other, I want to embrace my voice and bring energy and enthusiasm to my teaching. Balancing these two sides is something I work on every single day.

Strategies That Help Me Cope

Over time, I’ve developed a few strategies to help me manage this duality. One of my go-to tools is a pair of noise-canceling headphones. When I’m not actively teaching, I put them on to block out the noise around me. They’re especially helpful during breaks or after school when I need to decompress.

I’ve also found comfort in my rocking chair. After a long day of teaching, I’ll sit down and gently rock back and forth. The repetitive motion helps calm my nervous system and gives me a chance to relax and reset.

These tools may seem simple, but they make a world of difference for me. They help me recharge. This enables me to continue to show up for my students with the energy and positivity they deserve.

Embracing My Duality

I know that being sound-sensitive and having a loud voice might seem contradictory, but I’ve learned that it’s okay to embody both. I can be a passionate and enthusiastic teacher. I love to connect with my students. Additionally, I can be someone who needs quiet time and sensory accommodations to thrive.

If you’re someone who experiences this kind of duality, I want you to know that you’re not alone. It’s okay to have these seemingly opposing sides of yourself. In fact, they’re part of what makes you unique.

Teaching is my passion, and while the challenges of balancing my sensitivity and loudness are real, they’re also worth it. Every day, I learn more about how to care for myself while doing the work I love. And if I can do it, so can you.

Thanks for reading, and take care.